Kingdom Satisfaction

Luke 12:32 " Do not fear, little flock, for it is our Father's good pleasure to give you the Kingdom." I have a feeling that if God finds pleasure in giving us His Kingdom that one of our goals in life, daily especially, would be to try to somehow to receive what HE find PLEASURE in giving. By His grace, this has been a week where I have tasted more of the Kingdom than I have in a long time. I have looked for it harder and found it easier. It has been one of the best weeks of my life. Seriously. I love writing this because I know that no one reads it and I am getting over fears of being mis-understood and always seeing my life as something I do as a performance.

His PRESENCE is the answer to everything. Slowing down enough to really connect with Him is the thing. Not something. The Thing. I realized this morning as I began working that has been different about this week. I am typing on a dell laptop that has been terrorized by my beautiful daughter Ariel. She loves to pull the keys off the keyboard... I can see her now.. POP.. the key comes of the keyboard and she giggles and goes back for another! I am missing the G, ], and Enter keys. It is still usable but very un-becoming to the finger and eye. Last week, this just ate at me. Other "small" things ate at me. I went by computer stores, shopped the web for how I could fix it. It just bugged me. This morning it occurred to me that I have not even thought about it this week. This problem of circumstance was forgotten. I have been enjoying the presence of God and working hard doing what I am supposed to be doing that I have had no time to " be bothered" with so many things. When I seek first the Kingdom and renew my mind my "seeker" seems to be to busy to mess or be bothered with insignificant nusances that eat at me. I am not saying I am living in some state of perpetual bliss but rather these things have stopped ruining my day. Watching God open doors, hearing His voice, and being overwhelmed with thanksgiving for His love and grace seem to be drowning out stuff that usually ruins my day. I am sure most people think this is something a jr. high kid should have figured out but I am just now "getting it". Praise God. He is so good. It is His good pleasure, He actually finds pleasure in pouring out His Spirit, Love, and Presence on my life. I have tasted and seen the Lord is good and I don't want anything else!!

Faith Notes

Well I am about to get back into blogging. My wife has a new blog and I am inspired. I am currently looking for work in Amarillo. God called us to move here and I am here trying to see why. I love it here ( I am spending time looking during the week) but am missing my family dearly. I am staying at my cousins house and it is great. His name is Jeff "Skip" Chisum and we grew up spending a lot of our summers together on vacation. It has been really cool re-connecting with him and it is a blast. It is also free. I do not know what I would do without the Casa Chisum... more to come.

I am trying to learn the art of "letting God" open a door and at the same time... being faithful to knock, knock, knock. I am stretching faith muscles that have long since been dormat!! What a journey. When I do find work, I really desire to keep "living by faith" in a greater measure. It is so easy to get comfortable. What does it really mean to "live by Faith" anyway? It must have something to do with continually hearing God, (faith comes by hearing, right?) and doing what He says. I desire to be a better listener and doer...